Applying and now crying

       So lately the term "failure", has been used to describe my lifestyle. Any other month i would have defended myself but i have been thinking about how i am just that. A Failure. Of course, i decided to make something of my life soon afterwards. I asked my friend to accompany me and get job applications, noone was hiring but they accepted applications. Later i filled in most of what was needed and realized how it may effect my schedule (if i got a job). I wouldn't be able to go to band camp. I am not too thrilled about going to it but I would love to see the people in band camp, well, just one person in particular..haha. So, if the tie arrived which would be the better thing to chose?